She.

Every night she prays to God to take care of her loved ones. She tells Him to guide them and always keep them safe, away from the bad guys and the bad things on earth. But what if she is the bad guy and the bad things live in her head?

What if I tell you she's not scared of the dark because that is where she feels most confident in? What if I tell you she's scared of being alone because that would mean she would be by herself and I doesn't like her? Or that she's not scared of dying because she's actually patiently looking forward for it?

Behind the pretty clothes, expensive shoes, make up and smile, lives an insecure girl. She tells you corny jokes but actually goes home and thinks of what she would write on her suicide note. Is one enough for everyone? Or should she write one for each one? She doesn't leave her room because that's where she feels like she's most safe at. She spends her days laying in bed watching happy movies and dreams about being in them. And when she leaves home, she pretends she's okay to everyone. No one has to know what she's feeling, because she wouldn't know how to explain it to them either. Is there even anyone who would want to know?

She doesn't want to disappoint people, her parents to be exact, she knows how much they work for her and how they gave up her life just so she could have a good one. But in exchange, she just gave them disappointments. She can't be who they want her to be, even if she tried. She doesn't even know who she is, do you really think she would know who she wants to be? But she knows exactly who she doesn't want to be... -herself.

She's been replaced before... too many times by prettier girls. There was this one time, a boy broke her heart and cheated on her with someone he told her not to worry about. She would look at herself in the mirror and notice every single flaw she had, she cried on the bathroom floor naked knowing why he choose her. She felt like she was not worthy to be loved. She understood she wasn't enough. She'll never be enough. So it was not his fault when he found someone better and decided to leave with her. She was just a plain Jane. She tried her best though, every day. Although she'll tell you she's over that, she still cries over it.

Every day she tries to live, she tries to find the solution for her problem, she tries to live exactly like how you see her live. She's pretends to be that happy person but she's not. She's just another unheard, depressive, misunderstood, suicidal girl. Nothing more.